my bestfriends diary

It’s been a while since her last updated post. Her mind has been pre-occupied with so many things; which is causing her headache. (tsktsk) And up to this very minute she is not certain if she can note down this post as detailed as it’s supposed to be. However, she’s a little bit worried as you might find this post shallow. But still, she’ll do her best to share those mix thoughts that’s been bothering her this past few days.

First on the line:

WORK!!!
~For the 4th time in her career history, here she goes again. She was never satisfied with her previous work, similarly with her present. She finds a way to like whatever job she had BUT there has always been lacking. Honestly, she’s sick of this, jumping from one work to another. She wanted to be stable; nevertheless, she must find another one; one that can satisfy her; one that can really support her financially. She doesn’t want to waste her time to a job she doesn’t like anymore.

FINANCIAL SITUATION
~She is financially unstable, since she is the one supporting her younger sister’s tuition fees and allowance. What a responsibility she had but she’s happy though. It’s a fulfilling act for her. She was having a hard time budgeting her P2700 salary every payroll. It doesn’t pay off. (tsk!) She can’t even buy herself a pair of shoes or a cheap bag. Many times she ate one meal a day (imagine that???) it’s not a surprise why she looks so thin. Fortunately for her, she has falling angels who are ready to catch her whenever she’s out of budget *as usual*

LOW SELF-ESTEEM
She’s currently dealing with this matter:
~She’s putting herself down.
~She constantly doubts whether she can achieve anything.
~She doesn’t like how she looks; those stupid pimples growing over her face are so annoying.
~She got easily upset on petty issues.
~She losses her temper at a drop of a hat.
~Her impatience at times.
In short, she’s being so NEGA ever. And she discerns what would be the worst possible outcome if she continues to be like this. She doesn’t want it to happen that’s why she’s working on it as early as possible. To overcome this self- defeating attitude is what she aims first amongst all her concerns in life.



So, that sums it up. You may find it shallow… and you may think I’m being silly for bothering myself about those things. But it does matter to me. I’m putting myself in perspective so that it will be uncomplicated for me to resolve those concerns. I believe I can do it!!! Just recently a friend of mine introduced me to this song. I took a grasp of listening and after that, something inside me boosts out, well, its confidence I thought. Take time and listen it for yourself..