my bestfriends diary

A day before my birthday, I’m currently working, and trying to reach my monthly quota which is unattainable because we had a "snail" connection here in the office and resources for Spanish assignments are running out. And I’m updating my blog, that’s why *haha* What's more??? well, IM just UPSET!!!! At this very moment!!! Our so-called manager didn’t allow me to use my leave tomorrow! I don’t want spend my birthday in work even for a minute! i did this last year 2007 & 2008.I just hate it! He allowed me to work half-day!!! *at least* duuhhhh!!!

A day before my birthday, I’m reminiscing my last year’s birthday. I still remember my celebration last year; while I was with my board mates having fun @ Tropical Pool, I waited and counted up to the last minute that time. Morning @ work, my mama sent “biko dukot”, a known specialty of our town. It was their birthday treat for me. I wasn’t able to spend my last year’s birthday with my family because I’m @ work and honestly, my Mom and me aren’t in the good terms. So I decided not to go home. Instead I celebrated it with my angels; we had our sing-a-long bonding that time. I did enjoy but I was not totally happy. I was supposed to go home but I took important of my pride than being with my happiness.

A day before my birthday, I’ve decided that tomorrow is going to be different. I will go home and will spend my 22nd birthday with my Life. But I still have to see my angels before going home. My birthday will never be complete. Two of my angels are not here. They’re in Manila having their field work. They will be missing my birthday and the thought of it makes me wanna cry. But oh gosh, it’s ok! Everything will be alright. They are not physically present, I can’t see their smiles while greeting me, can’t feel their hugs but I know their thoughts will be with me.

A day before my birthday, I’m questioning myself, “Hey Rutty, can you guess what your 22nd year here on earth will bring you?”, “Where will I be in the next year to come? Will I be having a suitor this year?*wahahaha* “Oh wait!wait!wait my dearie.. Why am I so perplexed? I’m warning you myself! *hahaha* ok, it can’t be evaded to be puzzled for what future awaits us however we should not be bothered by that because future will worry for itself. According to this man,” If you can concentrate only on the present then you will be a happy man.” See? We just need not to mess up with our present and we will surely enjoy our life now without having so much worries and uncertainties.

A day before my birthday, I’m closing my 21st chapter in my life. This chapter has brought me flood of happiness and a little overflow of pain. Why can I say so? Simply because thunders of my 21st life added a new rainbow I looked up every after downpour of trials and obstacle. The rays of sun lights out shined the gloomy clouds which brought rainfall of problems and sadness.Thanks to those Special people who shared their umbrellas with me through the rain. To those who let themselves drenched by the rainfall just to be with me; who never leave me and offered their warmest embrace to at least warm my shivering soul. You know who you are but I would like to mention your name here so that others would know where my strength comes from. I’m so proud, lucky, and happy to have you in my life.

Mama, Lala, Jong2x, yayang
Aisa, Ailyn,chang2x, jojo & my1heart
Ate ching,
Honey,
CyriL,
Edang,
Katya & Tating,
Venicar

Thank you guys… I’ve been so blessed because of you.

Special thanks to Smart Gurls *hahaha* you just don't know but there are times i go to work with bothered mind but your craziest idea, countless laughters and smiles washed those burdens away. Thank you gurls..

And most of all, thank you dear GOD. Thank you for giving me another year to live and be with those special people I’ve mention earlier. Thank you.