my bestfriends diary

There’s some point in my pre-adulthood life where jealousy reigned within me.That was the time when I felt so ridiculous and stuttered.I was jealous because some pay more attentions to ‘some’. Some spent more time with their boyfriends. Some are being isolated with their works. Some are so busy their hectic schedules and some simply ignored me. *I negatively supposed* It reached to the point where I felt being neglected and worthless.

But one day, realization came... Why should I be jealous when I know where I stand for them? I’m confident that I owned a piece of their love and care. My jealous-mind was suddenly awakened. I know for a fact that I only have a temporary life with them. So when it comes to spending time and creating memories, I put effort to it. I slowly killed my jealousy to all those staffs. The sour feeling I was dwelling is the only thing that was hurting me. Jealousy welcomes sadness, anger and pain and I hated to feel that way. I’m not making myself a good favor for being so pessimistic. The impact of jealousy tears friendship apart which threatened me. Gladly I was able to overcome it.

So now, to cover up all those wasted time, I see and spend time with them more often. Making them feel that they are loved and I cared. No jealousy, only happy smiles and cherished time together.